Being Human is a Cold
Utah really is so beautiful. Hello my friends. I am finally back after the grand mouse fiasco that consumed my life for a couple of weeks. I feel clean and safe in my home, but now I have a cold. One of the most human experiences I can imagine. Firstly, everyone has had a cold at least once in the last five years. Everyone will likely have another cold in the future. We could measure life from cold to cold, or from non-cold to non-cold. My nose is stuffy and the sockets behi
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If you give a mouse hot cheetos...
Best bait ever? I promise we will talk about the mouse, but the lead up is part of the story. To begin, I am dead broke because I didn't follow my budget. That's on me. Tonight, I am calling the troops. By the troops, I mean my siblings. Being the oldest sibling is a funny thing. I worry a lot about my siblings, how they are, and how I can help them succeed. Ultimately, I think I care a lot but I am unable to do much to change their circumstances. That sucks. Coming back to t
Nov 174 min read
Annabelle Day #5
this^ It’s 4:07am and I am afraid to fall asleep because I have so much to do. I have work at 8:00am so I will probably get up in an hour and go to the gym (since I’m up anyway). I see my friends tonight and Annabelle died five years ago. She is why I am going to see my friends tonight. Currently, I have pink curlers inside my pink bonnet (my skin is ugly so my hair has to compensate). What you need to know is: I have been sitting in the dark for hours and all I can think is,
Oct 133 min read
How to Lose A Game of Chess
Chess is cool. I need to practice, so hmu if you wanna play! Once upon a time, I wanted to be the coolest, smartest, and most dazzling person you could ever hope to meet. I wanted to be like Violet Baudelaire or Nancy Drew or Anne Shirley. I wanted to solve a mystery or at least save someone's life. I wanted the most sophisticated vocabulary and memorized poetry to recite at will. I wanted someone that was clearly my soulmate because they were only ever interested in me (o
Oct 102 min read
Don't go down that YouTube rabbit hole.
This was the annual fall picnic that my friends and I went on:) I am in a mood to write. Funny. It comes in waves but it usually comes when I feel the most forlorn. So now you know. I have too many things to say. But also no desire to say them to ‘the void of the internet’ so tonight, I will keep things brief. I know people look at my blog (thank you), but I don't know who is looking. So today, for this post, if you are my family member, fuck off. This one is not for you. The
Oct 23 min read
Midnight Musings
A muffin and coffee, my typical breakfast for the past month. I finally know how to make coffee at home and it is kind of inconvenient, but still a new skill. I have been a college graduate for three months and it is nothing like I imagined it would be. There is no salvation when it comes time to repay the government for education, thus I am even poorer now than when I was in college. I am still living in the same city (which I swore would never happen) and I feel like I am
Sep 285 min read
Green is not my color
Daffodils are my favorite flowers. Once upon a time, one whole year ago, I had green hair in the spring. It was an accident, and I felt like Anne of Green Gables when she tried to dye her hair raven black and it turned out green instead. I was so sad. It happened while I was hypomanic. I met a strange man in the hot tub at 2am the night before and then my hair went from blonde to purple to green. I saw the man that sexually assaulted me months after it happened while I was at
Apr 63 min read
